I have been arguing with Seth since 1130 and crying for the last hour. My eyes hurt and my head throbs and my heart aches! He is going to make this a custody battle, I just know it. And I’m not prepared for this. I’m so scared and I’m so alone. And I’m wishing something will happen to make whatever I need to do clear.
I’m a grown ass woman wishing for a sign, when I should be taking charge of my life and writing it out for myself. Oh how low I have come.
And I think I need to stop singing and writing poetry. They are both stupid things I have wasted my life doing and they have done nothing for me. I need to be an adult. Not living in some make believe world.
I think I could feel more like I’m doing the right things if I could just stop crying!