Thursday, November 19, 2009

Who am I?

Recently I have connected with some old High School Friends. It's such fun! But it's hard too. You want to know everything about what they have done and who they are and you want to share everything about yourself but you don't want to be nosy or hog the entire conversation. And what if they don't remember you the way you remember them?
In the process of reconnecting I have discovered that I don't remember who I was back then. And it makes me feel really sad. I think I was someone I would have liked. lol. But I don't remember me. (It doesn't help that I have NO pictures whatsoever of me from 12-17 either)
So I decided to make a list of who I am now. I actually did this for one of my friends during an emotional conversation. But now I want to do it for myself. I don't want to look back in ten years and wonder who I was. (These are in no particular)

  • I love old video games. Spyro, Mario, Kingdom hearts...they make me feel young!
  • I love love love old movies! Sandra Dee, Elizabeth Taylor, Shirley Temple, Marilyn Monroe, Barbara Streisand...They are the best!
  • I get irritated that Men don't read more because then they would know how to be the kind of Men woman want and that they can be proud of.
  • I adore ALL musicals. And I secretly pretend that I am the lead whenever I watch them.
  • I love my B-day. (Even though I don't celebrate it.) Because there is a meteor shower every year on my B-day and not only do I have a tradition that involves sitting out and watching it, but it makes me feel uber special!
  • I love ancient Myths.
  • I am the worst person in the world to watch a scary movie with. I scream, I hide under my blanket and sometimes I run out of the room. And then I will cling to you ALL NIGHT LONG.
  • I can never have enough books. I love/hate that I read so fast. I read more than anyone else I know but I read before I have the money to buy another book.
  • And if it's an old book I will face any danger, including spiders, to rescue it and bring it home with me.
  • And don't get me started on writing books! I have a ton and I always need more. But I am kinda picky about them. I like the cover to be something that sparks my imagination. And I like the lines to be teeny tiny.
  • I secretly wish I could be marooned on a desert Island for awhile. I would build a huge tree house and have a little garden and fish, and swim and explore all day and I would love the peace and quiet.
  • I day dream way way way way too much and even though I love to do it I am trying very hard to LIVE and not live in my head.
  • Running and swimming are my two favorite things. I could do them both all day long.
  • I worry constantly that I am going to destroy Caden's childhood and he will grow up to hate me like I do with my mother.
  • I eat super duper healthy....but I have a severe weakness for anything with sugar in it!
  • I wish I had finished American Idol. I know that I wouldn't have won but I really wish that I didn't bail out because a guy told me too when I made the top 20.
  • I wish I would have gone ahead and published my poetry when I had the offer.
  • I wish I didn't feel like a child playing at being an adult all of the time.
  • I am a huge neat freak, and wish my family was too.
  • I wish Seth knew that the little things everyday mean so much more to me than Grand Gestures every once in awhile.
  • I have a disease. And I am so afraid of it taking over my life. I try so hard to ignore it and not let it define me...and yet every day some piece of it effects me.
  • I'm fairly certain I will be getting my heart broken soon.
  • I don't know how to trust the people I should. And I blindly trust the ones I shouldn't.
  • I am a romantic in the purest of forms.
  • I am EXTREMELY naive about many many things....but I am ok with that. Most people find it cute and endearing. And I am glad not to know most things.
  • I love the ocean. Any time of day, any season. I love watching the sunset on the ocean. I love swimming in the ocean. I LOVE looking for shells.
  • Swing Dancing is my favorite form of Dancing ever.
  • I was born in the wrong century.
  • I wish I could be a Psychologist. I can empathize well and I enjoy comforting others.
  • I adore pin-up models!
  • I plan on getting two tattoos.
This is a work in progress! I'll add more later.

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